I enjoy sharing my stories online because I have a lot of trauma to a point where I can’t tell what is normal and what isn’t. I feel a lot of people have that experience. I’m not special in that sense. Childhood trauma feels like a norm and sexual assault tends to get buried because it happens so often. People just give you a pat on the back saying, it happens to everyone and everyone has trauma. This is a critique on this site that is managing to give me more anxiety then it should. Is it broken or am I just an idiot that hasn’t clicked enough things to find anything to fix it?

I wrote a blog. I enjoyed writing it because it was about something that no one I know can relate to, but for some reason this site decided to give it the tags “LGBT, Anger, Anxiety, Child, Depression, Infidelity, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, Medication, Relationships, Sex Therapy, Suicide.” I would say two of those were right, kinda, LGBT and LGBTQ. I would also argue to the site to get rid of the LGBT and LGBTQ tag and replace them with LGBTQ+ because it fell in that category. I don’t mind specifics like “gay” or “transgender,” but having everything together seems more inclusive.

One of my biggest fears is how people interpret me. I don’t want people to believe that I’m obsessed with being the main character. I’m content being the side character that has too much going on where the viewers don’t notice until the season finale where I commit suicide. Truly the dream right there.

Yes, I know that no one would read my blog. It is wordy and it was meant for me to articulate my thoughts. Just like this one. That being said, I tested out clicking those tags. And they work. I have no anger, just observations. I literally have no idea what “child” means in terms of tags I guess I said the word a few times at some point, but I’m not a parent. Anxiety and depression, I have it, but never talked about it. It was kind of meant to be silly so it actually hurts that it was listed as that. Medication, I guess I mentioned that I work in a pharmacy, but I never mentioned prescriptions. Relationships, infidelity, lesbian, gay, sex therapy, I had none of these things. I talked about me being aroace, a term that is currently being underlined in red because even autocorrect doesn’t know what it is. Suicide confuses me the most. I am suicidal, but I don’t remember mentioning it and I feel weird saying it now even though I found this site because of the suicide hotline.

I feel like the site didn’t allow me to consent to them adding their own tags that didn’t have anything to do with me. I feel like I just posted something on Instagram and my sister, who views herself as an influencer, made the hashtags for that sweet clickbait. It also reminds me of how people make assumptions of me because of my identities as an aroace transman.

By the way, I feel like I should mention that me saying all of these words, though they are true, is a test to see if this site just creating tags without my consent every time. This way I will know that these tags can not be trusted in the least. If so I have no idea who to contact about this. This a test to see if this site truly cares or if it is just a business.