I kind of have a lot on my mind. So, I’ll try putting it all into bullet points:

*Sorry if you feel intimidated by the dense read, I’ve always been better at getting to the point rather than writing a descriptive journey

• I’m sixteen
• I’m a guy
• Never had a girlfriend
• Want to become the best martial arts fighter in the world
• Have severe social anxiety
• Self-Conscious of my voice
• Feel like I constantly forget how to walk because I feel like I’m always being watched
• When I’m nervous (mostly around other people), my face starts to look angry or like it’s crying because I don’t know what emotion I should display or if I would get judged for it
• I have existential crises all the time because I’m an atheist
• People always seem to be intimidated by me (until they interact with me more and see how nervous I talk and act and hear how high my voice gets when I am nervous)
• In general, whenever I hear my own voice in a video, I feel like stabbing my phone repeatedly because of how childish my voice sounds
• I wish I had a cool voice like Asta from Black Clover or Alastor from Hazbin Hotel
• I love working out, but because of my horrible social anxiety, I can’t make use of physique it has given me to be at all good with talking or flirting with girls
• And by the way, my username is Asta because he’s my favorite anime character of all time
• I am obsessed with his unwavering determination to survive and become the wizard king, even though he has no magic, resorting to ruthless and agonizing physical training
• And because of characters like him, I love anime
• But on another topic, I long for a sweet and shy girl that loves anime too
• But all the girls that I know that are like this are gay (not trying to stereotype, just actual information gathered from personal experience)