I’m so sorry. Hang in there, friend. A lot of people are on different wavelengths. I was attracted to the name of this wellness community because I finally did meet some friends who would become my self described tribe. Everyone has a tribe. I met my tribe at meetup.com where there are over 500 groups in my area with shared interests. It is not a dating site lol. When my own tribe is lacking, I try to find another tribe and I’m glad you are here and I’m glad I’m here because my tribe cannot handle everything from me right now lol. And that’s okay today. They are struggling too. We are all on this journey through life. We all have our own story and our own trauma. We just have to hang in there long enough to see the beauty and goodness in others and ourselves. I remember being a teenager and saying to myself, wow this is not how or where I want to live. I had to decide to hang in there until I was 18 and had other options. We go from one journey to another and sometimes feel lost. Look for the joy everyday. It is in these moments that we can rest and laugh and sing and see light. I am old now, but life is still such a learning experience. I have to walk away from toxic relationships. I have to set boundaries. I have to know how to heal myself. I have to understand that I can’t fix anyone. I can barely fix myself half the time. The past year has been so illuminating. My truth is that most media is a lie. If I don’t turn it off and become very selective with what I subject my eyes and ears to, I get very wrapped up with consumerism and various beauty ideals and what I’m supposed to be doing to be happy. What makes me happy cannot be bought. It’s about the cultivation of the great people out there that you will meet along the way. You well also meet people that are not great and may even hurt you but you will both learn from every situation. What makes me feel better is being outdoors. Participating in media that makes me learn something or gets me to feel more relaxed and takes me away from this crazy world. Art and music make me happy. Being around little children and their absolute truth about right and wrong and trust and love keep me grounded. Learning relaxation techniques with meditation and Tai chi and just being able to take a full breath and say to myself sometimes, not my circus, not my monkeys. I do not have to get involved in their drama, whether it be someone stressed out and driving badly or my family running around stressing out. I breathe and try and take care of my own issues. Some days it comes easier than others. Today I will choose new habits. I will ride my bike or take a walk or read. I will eat and brush my teeth, get dressed and show up