Good mornin Tribe!!! The sun is shining, the birds are singing. The coffee is soooo good this mornin. Hope everyone slept well … I did for the most part, woke up a couple of times, wondering if Matthew was hungry! They only get 3 ready made meals for the 54 hr Crucible. Awww, bless they hearts … lol, hey, I'm Mom …
Have had something else on my heart. Believing. It is so hard to just believe at times. Esp during a really bad episode of anxiety.
All the "feelings" that come with theattacks, the thoughts. They are tormenting. And I for one am sick of being tormented.
I could use pillsand become a zombie, or turn back to drinking to numb it.But I refuse to go back to that darkness.I lived in that for far too long!
I will continue to JUST BELIEVE that I am whole. And when my faith islittle, when I have thesetormenting thoughts, I will ask for strength and peace.
Most have been supportive of my belief in God's Word. Some have questioned it. And thats ok, I pray for them too!
I do not believe cuz I was raised in church or that I'm a PK … I believe because I have seen it with my own eyes! I have seen God move in a way that is amazing … and thats what we need today in our world. A move so great that no one can deny it. Yes, we should believe without having to see it, but even in the Bible, there were those who had to see to believe.
I can not see right now that I am whole, with nothing missing, nothing broken. But I choose to just believe …………
Have an amazing day my friend … God loves u (yes, even u) and so do I …