Childhood traumas left me with depression, social anxiety, poor social development, and isolation. Now I’m 31 and lonely (even in the presence of others), empty, with no social circles, 1 friend, no self esteem/confidence, with poor personal development, and filled with regret. I missed out on creating connections, developing relationships, socializing, partying, celebrating, living life etc. and now I’m too disconnected, awkward, underdeveloped, and depressed to do so. The depression is the heaviest it’s ever been and I’m desperate. Suicide clouds my mind and makes daily routines/work even more challenging than they already were. I’m tired and nearly out of hope. Who can relate?