So July 27^th was my ex’s birthday. I know this decision will be frowned upon, but I dropped off birthday presents for her. I stopped by her house when I thought she would be at work. I stopped by Wednesday July 26^th because I was certain she would take her actual birthday off. When I pulled up in the driveway I noticed her car and her boyfriend’s car were there. At first I thought they might be home, but after going inside the house and talking to her mom I inferred that the two were out. I assumed they traveled somewhere. Later on I found out from the father of my ex’s son that my ex and her current boyfriend were in Chicago.

I still haven’t gotten a text of a “thank you” for the birthday present. I get it, it was weird an ex giving her a birthday present. The reason I did it was because before my ex moved out she was sad that we may not be friends. I wasn’t ready to be her friend when this was all fresh, especially since she was already going to be with someone else so quickly, but now I feel like I’m at a decent place to where I can try.

I think this is why I’ve been down ever since.

I don’t regret what I did. I know regret is the hardest thing in life to recover from emotionally. But at the same time I really dislike that I stuck my neck out. I don’t miss that my ex changed her mind so often and would give me mix messages. Even in the relationship she would say one thing, but then turn around and say or want something else soon after. I feel it happened again where before she moved out she was so worried I wouldn’t be in her son’s life anymore and how we wouldn’t keep in touch. I’m trying to do just that and I don’t feel like she appreciates it.