OH MY GOD! I’m so sick of hearing people’s bitching. And these peopel are normal, fine people. Not even people who deal with depression and deal with the crap in my head that goes on everyday. I’ll even be honest, I know I bitch. I complain about stuff but not as much as some of the people I work with. Now I love these people. But I can’t take much more bitching. Today I almost slapped a coworker-one that I usually get along with just fine, we joke, we play around, we are always telling each other how awesome we are. But today she just PISSED me off. She wouldn’t stop bitching about things. This needs fixed, Nikki, that looks terrible, I think it should be that way, oh no you can’t do that.  And I’m standing there thinking to myself, okay i love this girl, im just having a bad day, luckily someone walked right up to the register at that moment and she had to turn around to check them out and I took that moment to walk away before i threw something.

Then the other thing I CAN’T stand is this other woman I work with who took three weeks off because she "kept thinking about killing myself" and she said she "needed a break from work cuz i just can’t handle it all" and I’m thinking to myself "bitch, i do it every fucking day of my fucking life, you don’t see me taking time off work cuz i "can’t handle it". I personally think that you are not depressed unless you have been having suicidal thoughts for at least 2 months straight. Having suicidal thoughts for two weeks and then claiming you can’t handle it all and need anti-d’s??? THAT’S NOT FUCKING DEPRESSION. That’s fucking you’re stressed out and don’t want to handle everything that’s going on in your life so you go get on meds to make everything better. I’ll tell you that almost 75-80% of the people I talk to on here, DON’T want to be on meds but have to be in order to function. I have yet to meet a truly major depressed person who actually has said to me "i want to be on anti-d’s" Almost 90% of the people I meet are trying to get OFF their anti-d’s. But anyways I go off on a tangent. The other reason she pissed me off is that she comes back from her 3 week "vacation" and goes to me "they gave you my merchandising  position and only gave me 20 hrs" like its MY fault they took her hours away. I was like "i HAD to take over ur merchandising cuz you weren’t here to do it and unlike YOU, i can handle my depression and i work thru it". If I took time off for everytime I got "really depressed" and "wanted to kill myself" i’d NEVER work. Okay, maybe i’d work like 14 hrs a week. Anyways this woman is also lazy as fuck. She did all the tuesday new release merchandising stuff last tuesday cuz i was doing other stuff for my mgr and at the end of the day she goes to me "i did all the tuesday stuff BY MYSELF" like i’ve never done it all before and i was like "good job" she was like "im so tired" and im like bitch im tired all the fucking time. i work fucking 10-12 hr days with my mgr just to get stuff done. she hardly works 8 hrs, half  the time she goes home after 4 or 6 hrs leaving me with even more stuff to get done. I’m not complaining about my hours I love it that my mgr trusts me enough to have me do important stuff for him and i know that if i want to be management someday im going to have to work 12 hr days and sometimes even doubles. I’m just sick of people not pulling their own weight and then blaming it on depression when they don’t even know what depression is.

*DISCLAIMER*- i realize there are all diff kinds of depression and i’m not trying to say that ppl dont have depression, im only talking about one situation here not everyones situation, in this situation i know this lady and i KNOW she’s not truly depressed.