We've been apart now,
Yet I keep feeling like I see you.
When I'm with my friend,
I keep thinking I see you there.
Like the other day,
I felt like I saw you.
As my friend & I waited for the cars,
There was this bus.
I thought I saw you…
All alone listening to music,
Without anyone to realize who you are.
I want to scream your name,
But I fear that I'm only going crazy.
I wanted to run out in the road,
To see if you would notice me,
But my friend pulled me back.
The next day I hear your voice in my head.
I tried to forget it,
Telling myself that you left me,
That I shouldn't be hearing your voice.
But it's like you wanted me to hear you.
I couldn't shake it out of my head.
I wanted to talk to you,
So I talked to your voice in my head.
I sound nuts,
But this is who I am now.
I cut my hair shorter,
Changed my name for myself,
And I'm trying to hang in there.
I don't want to be the person I was.
I don't want to be weak and give up.
I want to keep going through my days.
I want to live until I can't anymore.
Please let me live,
Don't let me go crazy.
Or if I do,
Let there be a purpose to all of this.
I'm confused and lost just like you.
I don't know where I'm going,
Or what I'm doing.
I hope that fate knows what's best…
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