My ex left me on Valentine’s Day and I’ve been in an off and on again, side piece reloading him ever since. He says he loves me but he’s also slept with a lot of girls after we broke up (so he says) at my job. I can’t seem to let him go. I hate coming to work I get panic attacks and honestly I get really overwhelmed cause I’m constantly reminded of him (we used to work together). I keep praying to die on my way in to work. It’s not just because of him but also where I’m at I’m life. I’m old and unwanted and I bring nothing to the table. There’s nothing for me here. My anxiety gave me something new to obsess over….. how bad I’m going to feel when the holidays come around and he still hasn’t chosen me smh I know I need to leave him be but I’m so sad constantly it feels better being with him for a little bit though I know I’m gonna be sad again at least I’ll have a bit of a reprieve where I can finally breathe. I hate that I’m so weak. I truly do wish the ceiling would just cave in on me. I’m constantly looking for things to kill me final destination style. The thought of him and how I failed at life overwhelms me to the point where I feel like I’m suffocating and I can’t move. I’ve cried everyday the last few months. My heart physically aches at the thought of him and how cheap I am. I hate myself.
hey , my boyfriend didnt talk to me for the last 7 and half months – but he still says we in relation. he is always busying in video games and flirting with girls! he wasnt like this before , he isnt the guy i met!- he changed after 3 months of our relation. last year at this day – i started crushing him. but now i regret about everything. that guy meant a lot to me but maybe i wasnt everything for him </3 leaving him for me is gonna be sad – as i was the happiest person ever during the first three months of our relation. everything changed – evrything.
i have realised that life isnt a disney tale – we get broken very often and thats not our fault at all
its okay , we have to move on and its gonna hurt a lot, but we have to move on – i cant move on in my life either , but i keep on telling others to. cux what else can we expect?