Let me introduce you to my dear friend and enemy maladaptive daydreaming. It helps me escape the real world for hours . Brings happiness for the moment. It all Started when I was 5 . I developed it as a coping mechanism than I brought it   to my teen years  and now my young adult life . It was rainbows and butterflies as a kid but now it’s destroying my world . I know the difference between real and fantasy . And yet I always choose fantasy and stories than my life . Can’t go a day without it, feels like an addiction as if without it I won’t feel happiness. I want to let go but how do I let go of something I have done for years and crave do to habits .  Maybe one day I will learn to make my reality my happiness