If I would of been willing to meet the former toxic relationship person years ago when he had his sons with him and wanted to meet my teens….

How would of it unfolded?

Would he of changed his mind last minute?

Would of my husband found out and left me?

Has the former toxic relationship lesson changed?

Is he a good dad?

Would he of been the good charming version of himself that I first knew when he met teens back then?

How would of he treated me?

Was he shopping for a step mom for his children?

What was he seeking?

He ended up moving across the country after that and that may of been the reason for his request to see me again and meet my teens.

Then, we moved to another state.

Maybe he was having marriage issues and wanted me to be a mom to his boys….

Or maybe he was going to hurt me by canceling last minute and find a way to hurt me emotionally again if I would of agreed to it

Could it of meant nothing? It could of been just a memory….

I wonder…..

If anyone has any guesses on any of my questions, please share them.

Once someone shows you their true colors and character, believe them the first time… I believe this is what I was thinking then.

It is evening and I feel sentimental and my heart is more powerful than my mind right now.

Maybe he changed and decided to love and cherish me.  Maybe he took a big step in what he offered.   Maybe he had worked on himself ……….   I feel emotional and sentimental.   I feel like crying this evening.

Thanks for listening.