So I told my husband what I wanted to do for my birthday since the original lans had to change since it was Easter weekend, we made alternate plans.  We hiked a local park and I was able to take some pictures.  It felt good to be out and yet, I felt like a fraud and failure.

I didn’t want anyone else to attend as I realized… I invite people for dinner or activities for MY birthday but they don’t invite me to theirs.

I’m confused on how I feel.  Am I a jerk they don’t want around?  Am I so boring, they don’t remember to invite me?  Now with everything being “social media”, if I delete all my accounts, how should I feel when no one notices?

And if THAT wasn’t enough, I watch the news and see politicians stat hinting that MY marriage won’t be valid.  I hear them say my writes as a person may not have to be honored.

America was “the home of the free”, I thought once the Civil Was was done, we had learned that.  Then 2 World Wars later, I thought we learned to NOT to hate because someone was different.

What land is there to escape too?