Im trying my best, but my best is never good enough for anyone. I’m in foster care so I’m held up to so many standards and it sucks. I’m supposed to be the perfect little angel and be good for everyone, and I’m tired of it. Maybe here I can vent without anyone telling the people I know because everything I say or do goes back to my foster parent and I’m tired of it. The only thing I’m looking forward to is my birthday next month, I’ll finally be 18 and I’ll be able to get out of here. I’m going back to where it’s familiar, back to my home. Not with parents, for multiple reasons, but back to my home county. I’m trying to get better but nothing is helping. I want to be happy again, but I cant even remember what it feels like to be happy, let alone when the last time I was genuinely happy. I just need some support but I cant find any. Maybe this will help me. I have a therapist, but in all honesty she doesn’t really help. I asked about anger management from multiple people and places and nobody seems to care. They think therapy is enough, but my anger is getting worse. I only go to therapy every two weeks and it doesn’t feel like it’s enough. I’ve asked for more sessions, like every week because I hate holding things in when something bothers me, but I was told no. Everything I ask for is always a no, even when I’m trying to help myself. I can’t every do anything right to anybody and I’m tired of it. I need help.
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Living with Social Anxiety (Blog 2) 08/01/14
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