I don’t really think anyone on here is going to answer me. But I have to talk about things because no one around me understands what I feel.
Ok so I can’t say I love you to people I love. I don’t know why I’ve never been able to, I only know that it really messes up my head. Nothing caused me not being able to say I love you. That’s the part of this that messes with me. I don’t know why, I’ve had so much crap happen to me in 14 years but I couldn’t say I love you before these things or after. I’ve said it a couple times before to a couple people and meant it. But its so hard for me, and especially when I cant say it. It kills me, I can tell that I hurt people when I don’t say it. But I do love them I just don’t know how to tell them and I cant even if I did. My parents get so hurt my, dad says I love you in almost every text he sends me just hoping for me to say it back. I makes me so sad to think about him thinking I don’t love him, I love him more than anything or anyone on this earth. Sometimes I wish my parents just knew how much I love them but they would never understand and judge me, or become such parents and want to put me in therapy or something. And this weird problem I have makes me really self conscious like who has this problem, and who will deal with it once I tell them. My friends don’t understand I don’t blame them, I cant blame people for not understanding, because it don’t understand. This is only the main things I could think of for this but there’s so many story’s and breakdown’s I wish I could forget.