So this issue is going to sound… I don't know… Playerish considering I just posted a blog about how I'm hurting about my (ex) boyfriend moving and all…. But I need to get it out there. So I've been kind of liking this guy here recently (I know…. You can't love to people at the same time! You're such a player (I've censored this insult. The word usually starts with a S or an H…)! It will only end up hurting both of them. <– I've heard it all and more) but anyway…. I've been liking this guy. We actually used to go out in the eighth grade but I mean honestly, what is going out in the eighth grade?! Nothing, that's what it is. And I was talking to my mother about him and she didn't like the idea because of how he treated me in the eighth grade (I told my mother everything back then and this guy was not the nicest back then… He's gotten a whole lot nicer though.) However she wasn't completely opposed to it. Then out of random act of remembrance or I don't know what, she asked me if he was black. And of course I said yeah but I was confused on why that would matter. From that point on she was completely no okay with the relationship. She said that I just need to get over him because (and I quote) "she was not going to have that in her family". And the 'that' in the sentence would be an interracial couple.

You don't even understand how infuriating this is to me. I thought out of the people in my family that I thought would be okay with the relationship, it would be my mother. Come to find out that that is simply not true. It hypocritical as fudge though because she has always said that she supports anyone that I date. Come to find out, that wasnt the case because I can't date another race. I just….. I'm pissed off! I was really trying to make an effort in moving on with my (ex) boyfriend and I was excited because I thought mother would be okay with this one guy… And I really really really like him…. He nice to me and we've been friends for a while so we know about like everything you can now from a person (not really. He knows a lot about me because I'm an open book however he is a very closed book with a lock wrapped around it….) We have a bunch in common and I just really like him. So for her to tell me to get over him… I mean I'm already trying to get over my (ex) boyfriend. I can't get over two people at one time! I'm not even getting over first! I'm just adding on to the people I love!

I just… I have so many emotions right now I don't know really what to do…

First world problems…