I found this page while looking for people going through the same struggles as me.
I was told in 2016 I have OCD depression anxiety and it all happened right after my son was born I should have been over the moon bursting with love and excitement but I everything changed I changed !
I am now at an all time low in my life I now struggle with day to day tasks
if I don’t need to leave my house I won’t and I feel like how am acting will start to have an effect on my son.
I find my self sitting in the dark and silence more than normal I find it hard to be around a lot of people groups of friends , work , family members I feel like everyone looking at me waiting on me to flip my lid as I have been losing it a bit more everyday
I am angry very angry with no answers to why I could be this angry
I live my life by the clock I set it all out in my head the night before and what I have planned needs to happen on the time and we can’t run late or early and its hard with a 3 year old who wants to enjoy life while I have him stuck to me and he doesn’t understand why mummy is so crazy I don’t think I fully understand what’s going on my self