WELL WHEN I JOIN THIS WEBSITE I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET SUPPORT THAT I DIDN’T GET FROM PPL AROUND ME AND I HAVE WHICH I’M SUPER GRATEFUL!

BUT WHILE I WAS IN NICARAGUA MY BOYFRIEND CAME TO THIS WEBSITE HE SAYS HE MISSED ME AND WANTED TO READ SOMETHING I WROTE AND HE READ MY LAST BLOG.

MY LAST BLOG WAS WHEN I WAS IN NICARAGUA AND I MENTIONED THAT I DIDN’T MISS HIM AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT I WOULD.

NOW AFTER HE READ THAT HE DIDN’T READ ANYTHING ELSE AND YESTERDAY HE BROUGHT IT UP IN AN ARGUMENT AND I GOT SUPER PISSED OFF :cursing:

I TOLD HIM WHY WOULD HE COME TO THE ONE PLACE I HAVE SUPPORT AND THAT I CAN BE MYSELF WITHOUT BEING JUDGED AND WHERE PPL HELP ME HOWEVER THEY CAN. AND HE COULDN’T GIVE ME AN ANSWER.

I TOLD HIM HE SHOULD HAVE READ THE PART ABOUT HIM LEAVING TO UCF AND THE PREVIOUS BLOGS ABOUT THINGS HE DID AND WHAT PPL RECOMMENDED I DID BUT I WAS STILL WITH HIM.

I HAVE NO PRIVACY NOW. I DON’T TRUST HIM AS MUCH AS I DID BEFORE BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE HE IS GONNA BE READING MY THOUGHTS. I WOULD TELL HIM THESE THINGS BUT IN THE PAST I NEVER GOT A GREAT FEEDBACK LIKE I DO HERE. IN THE PAST HE HAS USED MY DEPRESSION AS AN EXCUSE TO TRY TO BREAK UP WITH ME AND I JUST GOT FED UP WITH IT.

THINGS HAVE BEEN PRETTY WERID SINCE I’VE BEEN BACK BUT THATS CUZ I’M STRESSED OUT ABOUT SCHOOL AND STUFF AND I’M NOT THAT PHYSICAL WITH HIM RIGHT NOW BUT HONESTLY I JUST DON’T WANT TO BE.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT. SHOULD I LEAVE IT ALONE OR TALK TO HIM SOME MORE. I JUST FIND IT SO ANNOYING CUZ I NEVER CHECK HIS FORUMS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT!

FOR RIGHT NOW I’M JUST GONNA FOCUS ON GETTING THE RIGHT CLASSES FOR SCHOOL, TILL NEXT TIME