So OCD hit me right smack dab in the forehead this past week. I hate me and my OCD when I allow that to happen. I have been having trouble with my gag reflex and feeling as if I need to throw up especially in the morning. I have had every test done that you can imagine from blood work, to CT scans, to colonoscopies, and upper GIs and what they have found is that I have acid reflux, it's not really bad yet, so my doctor started me on Prilosec twice a day. The problem is in my head now, OCD, is telling me that I can't swallow because I'll gag or I can't eat because I might throw it back up. I've lost 10 pounds in two weeks, and not the healthy way, the not eating way. I try to explain it to my hubby and my kids and they just don't understand why I just can't eat since I was eating two weeks ago without a problem. Who am I kidding, I don't understand it either. I don't have a great therapist right now, I have a resident who doesn't know that much about OCD. Sometimes I think I know more about it than he does. He wants to up my meds and just see how that goes or if it will help with the anxiety. I have a meeting with him on this Tuesday. I got the name of another therapist from a friend and so I'm going to call that office tomorrow to see if they are accepting new patients. That's hardest part about my insurance and the doctors where I live, there aren't alot of experienced doctors that are taking new patients which is why some of us get the residents. My daughter is afraid that I'm going to become anorexic because I can't seem to eat and I can't give her a good answer. I can give her good advice when she needs it, but I don't take advice from her, my hubby, or myself when I'm going through these rough times. This isn't the first time I've had this problem, this is about the 3rd or 4th time in the 20 years that I've been diagnosed because I feel as if I should be able to get this under control with the experience that I have had in the past. It's just so very frustrating and demoralizing when this happens.