If I had my new psychiatrist in front of me I would strangle her to death. This past month she has put 2 major changes in place as far as my meds (she wanted to tackle the fact I take xanax but even she said that would be too much for me to handle). So for depression, I was already on 60 mg of cymbalta, which didn't feel like was helping. A month later I am on 300 mg wellbutrin and have no appetite and am extremely restless. The other med change she made was taking me off trazadone 300 mg and introducing thorazine, which made me feel dead inside, yet i still followed her advice after the first 2 weeks and went from 50 mg to 100 mg. The past few days I have felt like crap- can't keep a thought in my head, maintain focus, massive trouble falling asleep. I figured after being patient for a month I would call first thing today to get this settled so I left a message.

At 2 pm I was still waiting for the phone to ring, and got my husband to call on my behalf to see what was going on. After a bit of b.s. regardinf the LPN I had left a message with supposedly having called me back to tell me she would call me back, I got an answer- take less wellbutrin, so 150 mg, which I am ok wityh, but here is the part that pisses me off- double the thorazine!! Here I feel the need to say I went in with depression and anxiety, not any type of psychotic behavior (although after this ordeal my mental state can be explained away to sheer exasperation over lack of quality care). I told the nurse she can tell the shrink to shove the thorazine up her ass after having had to explain how negatively 100 mg was affecting me. 200 mg and I might as well have a lobotomy- I remember how I felt doubling the dose last time- not being able to feel any more than people do before their first cup of coffee, like a zombie, until 4 or 5 pm the next day, never doing it again. Even my primary care dr commented on how unusual it was that I was prescribed a med from the 70's. Not sure where to go from here, still have my ambien script from my primary care dr that I can keep taking, need to address getting xanax or weaning off with my primary care dr some time in the next couple of weeks. My old psychiatrist is in the same clinic and I left his office feeling hopeless in the past, now I give up on that place. Thanks for letting me vent. This is the last time I take a medication with the phrase " your physician has prescribed this medication because he/she has determined the benefits are greater than the risks" (thorazine). To anyone reading this, please if you are not feeling right or like yourself on a med, don't wait it out like I did- trust your body.

I just took xanax to help me calm down after my "mental health" experience and find that ironic. I also think that when you are adding/ weaning off meds you should leave a variable in place so the patient fully gets why they feel like crap- for me the wellbutrin has been like what I have heard speed is like- crawling out of my skin kind of energy, irritibility, forcing myself to eat. The thorazine has left me staring into space or at a page on my kindle or replaying the same part of a movie more times than I can count. To top that off my fifteen minutes worth of follow up weren't until Oct 1st anyway, so 6 weeks.

4 days later, on 150 mg of welbutrin, i can understand why a lot of people can't tolerate chantix to stop smoking, since it is welbutrin. it would make a good weight loss drug though. I talked to my husband about switching to a psychiatrist at the hospital where he works since they have a good reputation. i hate the welbutrin and have never been so irritable in my life this many days in a row. it feels like i am back at square one only instead of severely depressed my poor husband can't seem to do a thing right since i keep fighting with him. i ended up trying the 200 mg of thorazine after staring at the clock for what felt like forever one night and watched half an episode of breaking bad without realizing it on my dvr- it said resume play later when i went back to it and i didn't remember starting or pausing it. scared the crap out of me- no wonder they use this drug on the severely psychiatric population. i am so tired of feeling like crap only to go to a dr and either have them suggest ect or put me on meds that give me horrible side effects