RECENTLY…

THERE WAS A DRUG BUST IN OUR LITTLE TOWN. I FOUND MYSELF HAVING A MIXTURE OF EMOTIONS…
ONE BEING THAT OF SADNESS. YOU SEE THEY WERE MY FRIENDS (DEALERS),PEOPLE I HUNG WITH. I
WAS SAD FOR ALOT OF REASONS AND IT WAS REALLY WEIRD.SAD BECAUSE THEY GOT CAUGHT, SOMEONE
NARCED, AND HERES THE REAL KICKER…SAD BECAUSE IF I RELAPSED I WOULDNT KNOW WHO TO GO TO
TO HOOK UP LOL. I LOL NOW BECAUSE I CAN.

DON'T WORRY I'M NOT PLANNING MY RELAPSE LOL . IT WAS JUST ONE OF THOSE WEIRD THOUGHTS THAT FLY
THROUGH MOST ADDICTS MIND FROM TIME TO TIME. THERE IS NO RHYME OR REASON THEY JUST ARE THERE
BECAUSE WE ARE ADDICTS AND THATS WHAT WE DO.

HERES THE KEY TODAY, FOR YOU SEE , BECAUSE OF THE ROOMS OF NA AND RECOVERING PEOPLE LIKE MYSELF,
I HAVE TOOLS TODAY. TOOLS TO USE IN TIMES SUCH AS THIS. I KNOW NOW TO CALL SOMEONE, GO TO A MEETING,
AND MOST OF ALL TALK ABOUT IT. GET IT OUT IN THE OPEN AND EXPOSE THESE THOUGHTS FOR JUST WHAT THEY
ARE…… THOUGHTS!

I FOUND MYSELF WISHING I COULD'VE HELPED THEM, THAT IF I HAD ONLY….
THANKS GOD MY “HP” IS WORKING IN MY LIFE TODAY AND IS WATCHING OVER ME IN TIMES LIKE THIS. SOMETIMES
I GET SO EXCITED ABOUT RECOVERY I WANT TO SAVE THE WORLD…. OOOOPS, THATS NOT MY JOB. NO MATTER HOW
MUCH I WANT TO REACH OUT TO THOSE THAT SUFFER I MUST ALWAYS PUT MY RECOVERY FIRST. PART OF THE
WISDOM THAT YOU ALL HAVE TAUGHT ME IS TO BE WISE ENOUGH NOT TO PUT MYSELF IN SUCH A SITUATION.
REMEMBER, PEOPLE, PLACES, AND THINGS.

I PRAY TODAY FOR THOSE WANTING RECOVERY, FIND THEIR WAY TO THE ROOMS OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS
AND THE FAMILY AND LOVE WAITING FOR THEM THERE. FOR THOSE THAAT STILL SUFFER, I PRAY THAT THEY
SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH TO SEEK RECOVERY.

THANKS FOR LISTENING…
WITH LOVE…..
MARK