How can you deal with life knowing you have 40 to 70% lifetime risk of
developing deadly pancreatic cancer? Genes were identified for
hereditary pancreatitis which increases risk tremendously from
developing the deadly disease. My mother passed away at 49 and
grandfather around the same age.

I've been a hypochondriac my whole life, dealing with heath anxiety
issues. Visiting the various doctor over 30 times in 4 years. I
thought I had brain/neck/lung/testicular/liver/oral/skin cancer. All
came back negative. Now the new findings literally left me on the
floor crying for hours.

I am only 30 years old with a 4 month old boy who I adore. I can stand
the thought of leaving him behind and not being able to see him grow
up. I already suffer from extreme health anxiety which with new
findings that are now leaving me in a deep depression. I find even
hard to look at him without crying.

My life is slow and boring. The thought of laying in my death bed
regretting all the things I could have been or should have done to be
happy. I never live in the moment. My life consist of sitting around
working on websites all day.

Please someone help me with tips, words of wisdom or anything! To top
it off, I have the worst insurance for mental health, which is Kaiser.
Only group therapy is offered and you're able to see counselor once
every 6 weeks 🙁

Every article I read — and I read many of them, all point to the
increased risk. It's on my mind all day and night. I cannot eat due to
my nerves. Even when I'm having a good time, it's still in back of my
head.

You would think knowing this info would help diagnosing something
early, but it's unlikely. My dream come true would to live to be 90
like my other grandparents.

1 Comment
  1. KnockedDown 8 years ago

    "Increased risk" is not a sure thing. In life there are no sure things, go by that. A month ago I came like 1 split second from being killed in a car accident, made me remember, hey, life is unpredictable. You can die tommorow or 100 years from now, ultimately it's how you live not when or how you die.

     

    I've been a hypochondriac myself before. I went through panic disorder, I thought I had every disease from MS to cancer to some sort of brain tumor. I got better, and it does get better, but remember mostly to focus on other things, keep yourself occupied and find things that DO make you satisfied. If you do that, even in dire circumstances you will find light.

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