I have always tried to be a support to others. I try my best. I try to be an ear to vent in.. or a shoulder to lean on.. so to speak. I know I’m not good at it. but I try. Even if its to just listen. I know that its nice to have someone to talk to. Even if they don’t have an opinon or anything.
I go into the chatroom just for someone to talk to. I’m going through a really bad time right now. I just wanted someone to listen.. an ear.. a shoulder as I have been for many in there.
I know that it can be hard when people are talking about suicide, ODing, SI ect.. I can be hard to hear. I know this. I know that I can be a bit open about these things. If you find it uncomfortable, please just tell me. I’d be quite happy to leave to a different room. Honestly I would rather you say that it’s upsetting you, rather than leave to a different room.
It makes me feel sad to have people leave because of me.. It makes me feel even worse when a vast majority of the room leave when I start talking. Its like being given the cold shoulder. Turn and walk away when I’m in the middle of a sentance. You have NO idea how bad it makes me feel.
I’m going through the hardest time of my life right now. I don’t know If i’m going to survive today, let alone tomorrow. All I want.. no, i’ll rephase.. all I NEED is someone to listen. To know that my thoughts are being heard. It’s not alot i’m asking. Just a bit of support. Someone to talk to. Not the cold shoulder. I get that enough at home, I don’t need it online in my support place too. Please I’m begging. Just let me know i’m being heard…….please……