My day to day is simple. Im a single mother of one. I have a fiancé and he has a daughter. I love her like my own. The only issue is that we live states away. Julian and I live in New York. T and his daughter live in Mi. So until he gets here (any time now!) I am living with my parents. Its convienant and they love Jules so much. The help is nice. So Im a stay at home mother. For those of you who know this life #thestruggleisreal.

I am home day after day, like its groundhogs day. I own a xbox one and a PS4. So I game when I can. It helps me stay sane. This situation sounds like a dream to some. Although when your an addict.. It doesnt seem so delightful. I become depressed if I am not “doing” something. Even when there is plenty to do. Normally its the same routine- Wake up with the baby. (Clean)Let the dog out. Feed them.(clean) Nap time. Feed them.(clean) Let the dog out. Put the baby to bed.

I have started broadcasting. I enjoy it a lot and it helps. I also have a youtube channel. I go back and forth between the two. Then I game. Or paint. I LOVE to paint. I have studied art, for about 12 years now. I need to do something more.. I feel like this all the time. But what is it? I’ve also been paying a lot of attention to my spirituality lately.. Thinking that it would help. The lord has always been a step ahead of me, and ready to trip me up when i need it.

Do you have these feelings? Can you relate? Im about to re-do my sons room again.. For the sake of something to do that will make me feel accomplished.