This week has been a very topsy turvy week..

This time last week i got my tongue pierced, and its still healing, not really sore anymore, and only a tiny bit swollen.

There was the news of tigerlily, which is strange to not see her in the chatroom.. R.I.P Tiger..

On i think it was monday, i went and brought a 1ltr bottle of vodka, drank about quarter of it, drank again the next day, and the next. on the second night i took some pain killers, and something to sleep, and the whole combination didn’t sit well with me,  and ended up very out of it.  I worried alot of the chatroom, which i’m very sorry for.

I went to see my probation officer again today, he didn’t  like that i had been drinking to the point of blacking out again, as he’s worried that when i’m blacked out, i don’t know what im doing, and may end up in jail.. I think i have a bit more control than that.. but whatever.. He put some hard questions to me today things like "do you think your an alcoholic?" I told him i don’t think i’m an alchoholic, in which he replied, "Thats what all alcoholics say".. I think i’m more of a binge drinker, rather than an alchoholic.. He said that he may ask me to see an alchohol councellor.. ohh joy..

Speaking of councellors today i finally got the courage to call and make an appt to see a psychologist.. she wasn’t there, but i left a message for her, so now i have to wait for her to call me back. It took alot of courage, and support from the guys in the chatroom, so thanks to those who where there ( you know who you are)

so thats my week, another week in my life, another week to forget…