They say that from chaos comes order. I'm hoping that whomever -they- are are correct. This week, we've had the bombshell dropped on us that my 14 yr old daughter wants to go live with her mother. Her mother, who lives 3.5 hrs away and abandoned the kids 3 yrs ago. Oh, and she wants to do so this week so that she can start school out there. Then there's my youngest son who's in outpatient therapy for ADHD and potentially OCD. Oh, and me. How could we forget? i'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown with the pressure of it all, and my own OCD/BPD have been skyrocketing, as most of you know. Also, as you know, I've been wrestling with the decision to go in to the hospital. This weekend, I had a long talk with my extended family about it, as well as my doctor. I also called up the hospital and had an in depth conversation with the doctor there about what I need. The concensus was that it's not safe for me to be home right now, and that I need to be under supervision. My medication needs a complete overhaul, and I need a change of scenery for a few days. Long story short, I'm being admitted at 10am tomorrow. This is horrendous to me because my daughter leaves for her mom's on wednesday, granted, she'll be back every other weekend, I just feel like a bad dad for missing her leaving for her mother's. I carry a lot of guilt if you haven't noticed.
So, my OCD is in overdrive right now, I will have a roommate and I will be away from the comforts of my home. My OCD doesn't like that. Will it be clean? Will my roommate smell? Will there be any triggers? While on vacation at the funny farm, I will not have access to electronics, so the tribe will be off limits. I will stay in touch via phone with those that I can, I promise. Those that i cant? Write me a note, make a paper airplane, and throw it due east…. you never know. 🙂 In all honesty, I'm a hot wreck over this, and I appreciate your thoughts as I go through this. Hopefully this points me in the right direction. Thank you for all your help and support through this.
-Bill
Hopefully, they will let me be your roommate. Oh, the fun we'd have in group! I know you're hurting, Billy-Boy, but I know you're a tough guy, too. You've done this before…you can do it again. And hey…I -have- a phone, so I better get daily updates from the nuthouse. I love you tons and if you need anything…let me know. I'm on good terms with Ming. It'll be fine, darling.
You're so brave. It's really good that you're going to help yourself for the good of your loved ones and yourself (: You deserve one big hug from everyone at the tribe. Maybe you'll finally get the relief you've worked so hard for. I'm so happy that you're taking this huge step towards health and peace of mind. When you get back, tell us about how it was. Oh! And also about your room mate!Hugs!~Jabs
P.S. You are the sexiest mental patient I have ever met.
Wishing you well on your journey. Peace to you.
I believe you need this "mini vacation". I know it will be difficult but I think it is what you need. I am not in your shoes but my comments on your situation with your children, don't worry. Yeah right! That's all us OCDer's do is worry. So I will say this, everything happens for a reason. She needs to be able to make choices on her own. I mean you need to let her fly a little in order to take care of yourself. If not, then who will take care of her when she needs it? Little girl's know that Daddy is always there. He always loves his little girl. My daddy passed this year and I regret not spending as much time with him as I could of however sometimes you just need a break. I believe your little girl will understand.
I will keep you in prayer!
Sorry to see you having such a rough time. I'm glad your getting the help you need. Hang in there ! Your not alone.
you are a great dad to your daughter so if she goses and lives with her mother you can still be the rock for your girl.
sorry you are going through this
good luck