So things are getting a little beter… Were getting a little better. A little more tolerable to get up at the beginning of the day. A little more tolerable to go through the day without any incidents or without anyone noticing how incredible sad I am and always am. I was starting to feel back to normal and have it be like it was. When nothing really bothered me and I didn't get so sad to the point that I want to crawl into my bed and just lay there for far longer than I should. To the point where I could take a shower and feel refreshed afterward instead of just standing there for far long than I should and feel worst afterwards because of all the negative things I think about while I'm in the shower…. Things were getting better…

Then Monday happened… I was having a pretty good day, nothing terrible really happened I guess. The usual stuff. Then I get into English class… Things were going good and we were giving the correct answers to a sheet that we had done (for no reason honestly. All the papers were corrected and the right answers were given on the sheet. So there was no reason that we go through them because everybody already knew what they did wrong and how to fix it.) So it was my turn and I just happened to get the one that was the longest on the paper. So I say EXACTLY what is on the paper and EXACTLY how SHE HERSELF corrected in on the paper… Once finished she said "Well I'm going to read that again because you got some wrong…" Then she read it again and it was the EXACT same thing that I said. Like that would not have been as bad if she hadn't had said it the way that she had. And if I weren't the only on to get corrected. Like other people started saying the ones that were right after mine and there were a couple people who said the answers wrong and she would just shrug them off saying that they read that perfectly…. Like NO THEY DIDN'T!! The bad thing is is she does the all the time. She'll give me less credit than the rest even though I did the same thing as everyone else just because I'm me. She correct me in front of the class or call me out saying I did something wrong in front of the class… Like I wouldn't mind if she was saying it to genuinly correct me and wish that I do better but she's not even consructive in her correcting. She'll just blare out that I did something wrong without telling what I did wrong or anything. So not only am I freakishly embarrased now, I still have no idea what I did wrong, IF I even did anything wrong in the first place…

So that is why I'm not even going to her class today. I will just hang out in the cafeteria with my friend… If I get caught, I'll just go to my counceler (I know I spelled that wrong…. it looks wrong)and explain my reasoning… But I'm not going to her class. She completly ruined my Monday and continues to ruin every day that I see her and then some… I might to go to my counceler even if I don't get caught…. Maybe later on in the period though… Though I might not go to MY SPECIFIC counceler and go to the one that I had freshman year because she knows me better (like she was there doing my dark times…)… Though I'm not going to that class… Not today. Maybe not even Friday when I have her again… The only reason why I came today at all was because I need to get my rat at the end of the day… And even if I go to the counceler there is nothing that she can do. There are less than three weeks left of school. Like I don't want to drop the class because not only will that go on my perminant record but I will also have to retake the class which I have no time for next year. Hopefully I won't get her for what little english that I signed up for so that I can say good bye to her forever…

It seems like the only time I get on here is to complain… I'm sorry… I'm being a terrible tribe member. But I barely have time at all now that finals are nearing and teachers are bombarding us with projects and assignments at the last minute…. And I need to get some of these feelings out so that I don't explode on some poor person who was there are the wrong time… Or go back in my shell and perhaps not come back out again… As soon as schoolis out I'll be better though…