I've been in a relationship wit a man of 3yrs that stole my heart. After only 4months I was in love. I'm a single mother of 3. I work everyday to provide for me kids. Well to speed up I met this man after my divorce. It was destined and a god sent for us to met. I would so randomly go an get a HIV test done every 6mths. I tested negative in August of 2008 and February 2009. I met my boyfriend in Nov of 2008. we did use protection condoms come only in 3's so after that we went without and has since August 2011. I wanted so extra life insurance so I called my agent and was swabbed in April 11'. I was notified to make contact wit my Dr about my lab results in June. Well I scheduled my appt missed it twice. In October 11'. I was notified by the local Health Dept to come in for a consultation. Well on November 1,2011I was tol I was Hiv positive.I had given the case worker of only 2 people I had been with over the past 3 yrs. Only I didn't have a number for one, she got all of my boyfriend info. I received a call the next day and her question to me was “have u ever had sex wit someone who tol u they was HIV pos?” No ma'am! Well one of my contact was already in the database. She tol me to think about all the info I had given her and relax and think. It came to me she didn't anything but the other guys name, did that mean my boyfriend of 3yrs and infected me? Yes he didn't quite admit to it when confronted. He said he was in denial of 2 yrs before meeting me. He also said he didn't know how to tell me. Before we got serious, well after we got serious he still didn't tell me. He went on to lying about cheating on me wit several females. To this day I am still in love wit this man. Where my life goes from here it's not decided of me. I've thought of murder and suicide. They say u never ask y? So I have let go and let GOD. I have not started meds or treatment yet. I'm undecided if I want to keep this relationship I feel he was selfish of me, he betrayed me and was very disloyal to me and my family.