I found this website after a few of my favourite Anxiety chats went offline. I\'m female, 24, and I\'ve had panic disorder all my life. My mum was agoraphobic when I was young so I didn\'t get out much. My anxiety is \'treated\' with Diazepam 10mg and Seroquel 50mg. I\'ve tried every anti-depressant out there. My social phobia gets worse. I quit my job this past October because I couldn\'t take it any longer. I don\'t understand people\'s facial expressions and I go dizzy when they talk to me. All of my friends are online. I only have one friend in real life – I have a wonderful husband that works to support us and understands very well, or tries to.
Anyway.. enough of my life story.
Today I went to the dentist which was a task and a half on it\'s own. I was shaking in the chair. The Dentist was trying to joke with me and it wasn\'t working. I was petrified. I am extremely squeemish about teeth and sitting in the Dentist\'s chair is a nightmare. Even though I have good dental hygene – I brush twice daily, floss and use mouthwash – I still need 2 Crowns and more fillings than I care to mention. When I was told this, my heart sank. I thought of the many hours I have to sit in the Dentist\'s chair while I am drilled into.. I can\'t stop crying now.
I don\'t want to be ruled by panic, but I am. It has gripped me all my life.. I don\'t believe I will ever be \'cured\'. I just have my better days.
I wish my brain had an off button. Non stop I have been thinking about this Dental work that I need and my appetite is completely gone.. my husband tempted me to eat a slice of pizza but that\'s all I could manage. He offered me other things he knows I like but I just feel too afraid to do anything but sit.