I’ve never done anything like this before. Sharing personal details about myself with the world is something I am very uncomfortable doing as I am a very private person. However, my life has become almost unbearable since I got anxiety.
At first I thought my panic attacks were heart problems. I would go to the ER sometimes twice a day because I was having what I thought to be a cardiac event. But after hundreds of ECGs, an echo, blood work, and a stress test, I am almost convinced my heart is okay. So I am trying to learm as much about anxiety as I possibly can because its seriously starting to affect my family now.
There are times that I feel like a broken person, unable to do things “normal” people can do. I am afraid to do pretty much anything. I am scared to be left alone with my kids because there is that thought in the back of my head that it might not be anxiety. I am scared to have sex because I dont want to have a heart attack. I have become extremely health concious.
I have changed to a plant based diet and cut out all forms of caffine. No candy or any type of junk food. No soda of any kind. Mainly gatorade and water, the occasional glass of juice. I have become so worried about my health that I cant enjoy life.
Something has to change, and fast because I can’t keep living my life this way. I am looking for some advice if anyone has it. I can’t talk with my wife or family about it because they just dont get it. They hear the word anxiety and tell me to suck it up. It’s not that they don’t care, they just dont understand.
Hopefully this site will help me find someone that can relate to me and understand me because honestly I am feeling really alone in a really big world.