Hello world, or anonymous reader. I am not really writing this “blog” to anyone. Mainly just anyone who will listen.
I’m not the best at explaining how I feel. And I’m not the best at making friends. I’m not anti-social, I’d just rather be by myself, if that makes any sense. I guess that’s the thing about not having friends. You’re used to no one listening.
School is not the best for me right now. I meant, I am not stupid, and I am passing all of my classes. It’s just that the atmosphere is killing me slowly.
Anyway, wish me luck at school tomorrow. I no longer have the only friend in my life who cared about me. I guess it just wasn’t meant to be.. Here’s the story with him.. Let’s call him “C”. Okay, so I was on and off with C for 7 months. I was so in love with him. (Thanks for screwing with me, world). Anyway, we broke up for the final time about 3 weeks ago. I told him that we could try to be friends, but I don’t want to get back together with him. SO guess what he does today. KISSES ME. How confusing, right? Than he decides to tell me that he still loves me and that he wants to be together. (C is the best friend I lost today, May 15th).
Anyway, wonderful reader, sorry for the little mini rant. Ooo. It feels so good to get that out.
Problem number 398736479297345
There is this boy that I like that I have a class with, but he barely even knows I exist. Welcome to high school.. It’s honestly quite sad. He’s pretty, so it’s even more sad that whenever I talk to him, I freak out. Seriously, I freak. Why would an attractive boy talk to me?
Anyway, goodnight, anyone who’s listening. We’ll talk soon.
xoxo, Gossip Girl
Hey, Gossipgirl…. ***Hugs*** Welcome to the tribes.
First of all, there’s nothin wrong with your ‘rant’ nor how you feel. Yep, high school can be a huge B, at times, but it’s also a huge learning experience, too. i feel like you were right to be kinda weirded-out by your ex-friend. (Maybe you need to let’m know not to go there again? esp since you made it clear there wasn’t gonna be anything more than friendship, if that.) i felt very similarly, when i was in high school, esp where guys were concerned–esp the ones that i was interested in. So, if you ever need/want a shoulder, feel free to msg me. 🙂
Hi, Delane. Thank you so much for your response. High school is a major learning experience for me at the moment. Thank you for your reply!