Having a tough time today. I have a family get together at noon and scared. I never realized it before but they cause me to go down because my sibblings remind me of my childhood. I felt guilty then because I was felt (and was told by them) that I was treated better than them. What do i do with that. How do i stop feeling guilty? Its like survivor’s remorse in a way. It’s got me down . I wish I didn’t have to go.