Todays a new day and although its valentines day, I don't miss the thought of opening presents with my ex boyfriend or holding him. I do however miss talking to him as a friend before we got together. I just wanted help and he only gave it to me for a while until he couldnt handle it and got to much for him,which is sad, I thought friends were supposed to be there for you at the hardest times and stick by you. Understandable it is hard to deal with but it's not like I like to handle it myself either. I don't want this illness. Yesterday I didn't have to deal with my illnesses for hours. I went hiking through the countryside for about 10 miles (it said 6 on the map but no way was it 6, and we got a tad lost for a little bit). It was fun though. I managed tonearly losemy walking shoes in sinking mud, I ended up treading in the mudin my sock and leaving my shoe behind,we got lost and couldnt find our way back for a while, Islipped over in marshland and got mud all down my back and hands, Ithen walked through sloppy mud (still not convinced it wasmud) and drenched my shoes and socks. It was most definitely fun and the whole point of it was to get muddy 🙂 I got home and treated myself to a takeaway and watched TV.

Today so far I've slept in half the morning and had my driving lesson, which I'm definitely ready for my test now 🙂 but now im back to sitting on the sofa doing nothing. I have work soon for like 10 hours or more 🙁 i don't feel like going and only the other day i was at work breaking into tears because I was fed up of customers saying I chucked their food on the floor, heads up on thenext person who accuses me of that because I WILL be chucking food on them. People were expecting me to run around the floor on my own handing all the food out. I'm fed up of having to do too much in one go with no help. So today if they expect me to do that then I'm most definitely going to be asking for less hours or quit. I can't do everything alone in a certain time limit. People need to be patient. Clearly patience is a rare thing nowadays.

Hopefully today will be okay though, I do have my fingers crossed hoping it will go smoothly.