I\'m new to this site and thought I would share my story too..maybe it can help me? or maybe help someone else…. I suffer from really bad anxiety disorder and depression. I haven\'t been to work in over 2 months now. I do therapy once a week and take xanax for a while I couldnt drive or get out of bed. I had gone to the hospital maybe 5 or 6 times in 1 month. plus all the other doctors appointments. I then made an appt with a psychiatrist who gave me the appt for a month and a half later so finally about two weeks ago I went and she gave me lexapro and told me it will cause more anxiety in the beginning (witch I later found out she wasn\'t supposed to tell me this) so I took it for a few days and it made me feel even worse than I was feeling and a week prior to starting this medication I was actually feeling a bit better. I even drove.. so now I stopped with the lexapro and called to sched a new appt, but of course they still haven\'t called me back and im sure when they do they\'ll give me an appt for 2 months later :/ … With therapy though I have realized that I can control my panic attacks a lot better than I could before therapy..the only thing that I cant seem to control is this constant feeling of being off balance. I constantly feel anxious when Im sitting down and feel I need to press my feet hard on the ground because Im going to fall over or if im taking a shower I have to hold on because closing my eyes makes it even worse…anybody else have this feeling? a new thing thats also been happening is right before falling asleep at nights I feel as if Im forgetting to breath and I jump up and catch my breath along with that sometimes my shoulder and leg twitch…This anxiety has taken over my life and its a horrible feeling. people give me "advice" and say "its all in your head and you have to be your own doctor, you\'re the only one that can cure you,,you dont have any serious illness" and so on…. this makes it worse because it makes me feel as if its my fault that im not getting better and my illness isnt something serious to complain about while theres so many other people with much more serious illnesses fighting for their lives everyday…im really running out of answers already…I WANT MY LIFE BACK! but dont know how to get it back 🙁

 

if anybody actually sat and read through this…THANK YOU

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  1. Vtillg12 11 years ago

    thank you for your words..they mean a lot, i feel sad that other people like you go thru this too, but it gives me some hope when others who know what im going thru talk about it with me. when i talk to other people who dont have this disorder i feel like im speaking in a language that they dont understand because nothing i say makes any sence to them and that angers me more. therapy helps with the attacks, but not with the feeling anxous all the time yet i think thats why i need meds, im going to try zoloft next maybe….again thank you and good luck to you too

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  2. Vtillg12 11 years ago

    yes and thank you, does feel good to have support especially from people that understand

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  3. stephaniejulia 11 years ago

    my anxiety is with me all the time i feel like you alot. but irefuse to let it make me stop working or driving etc. i feel i need to be hospitalized sometimes but i read a lot of books on anxiety and i know i will be ok and get thru my day. it is sooooo hard thou. i dont take meds any more they were not working anyway. hang in there and try really hard to do the things you want to do. dont let it get you. good luck

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  4. Vtillg12 11 years ago

    thank you, its just SO hard at times just like you said…im hanging on I feel like im at war with myself…its an insane feeling so difficult to explain on top of the anxiety theres the depression which doesnt help either :/ ,,,, but im going to be positive

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