Yeah. That's how my sleep is. If I have to get up early, I have trouble sleeping. After the sertaline didn't help much, I'm now on trazodone (Desyrel.) Anyone else used it? I tried it last night. I still woke up over and over, but at least I got back to sleep. I'm worried that I'm just doomed to this insomnia. Maybe it just takes a while to start working. But sleepiness is a side effect, so I'd think it would work right away. I'm a bit worried that this won't help either.

On the other hand, when I get to sleep in, I sleep way too much. I'll stay in bed at least 12 hours or so. I've been doing it for years. I wish I could quit; I'm in the best years of my life, and I'm sleeping them away. Time seems to go by so fast, and it's scary. Not sleeping so much would be a way to get more time out of life. Yet I can't do it. It really is like an addiction. I want to quit, but I don't have the will power. There are different reasons. It's comfortable, I don't feel energized yet, there's nothing else I want to do. Whatever the reason, I have a bad habit of oversleeping and can't seem to get out of it.

Maybe the oversleeping has something to do with the insomnia. Maybe I'm so used to getting too much sleep that when I have to get up I worry I won't get enough sleep and that keeps me from sleeping. Ugh. It's such a mess!

I'm still looking forward to seeing the psychiatrist in two days. Maybe she can help me get out of this. I know the obvious solution is "just get out of bed!" But for me, it's not that easy.