There’s so much going on right now that I can’t sleep. When I do get sleep, it’s only 2 1/2 to 3 hours. Even when I have time for a normal days sleep.
I work 3rd shift, so that doesn’t help me, either.
My life is just twisting every direction at once.
I’m worrying about everything, and everyone.
Right now I have one friends break up, another friends health, my brothers wedding, my daughters, and Love on my mind.
Today will be a no sleep day. There’s actually no time for sleep. I get off work at 0700, have to wait for my bank to open, shower & shave, get dressed, go for family pics for my brothers wedding, get my best friend for my brothers wedding, meet my daughters, attend the wedding, and reception, drop everyone off, go to work, and get off at 0700 Sunday morning. Can I call off work? Problem is I won’t. Pics at noon was a surprise that was dropped on me about 12 hours ago. What little sleep time I had planned was taken from me then. On top of that, I only got about 5 hours of sleep in the last two days. Friday, I would’ve gotten more sleep accept I was worried about my best friend. I should’ve had 6 hours of sleep, but I was awake for most of it. I went to bed around 4pm and had my alarms set for 10pm. I woke up before 5pm, and was awake till 8pm. Wide awake.
I’m also directly tied into a situation that could get ugly. It involves gossip, and that’s never pretty. I thought I knew the source until I received a text message saying otherwise. That text doesn’t make sense to me as the first place I heard the gossip wasn’t a place that the person mentioned in that message would go. My original info does make sense. The gossip I got involves more than what most are hearing. I just want it to stop, and I’m ready to confront both possible sources about it. I don’t do confrontation well, and it takes alot to get me to that point. I’m there. Ok, I didn’t mean to write a book. I’ll blog on the rest later.
Too much.
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