So I’m going to try to do better about posting up blogs more often. I heard that journaling uses up almost all facets of the brain and is healthy for you.
I’ve still been really struggling since I last posted, but I’m trying my best each day. It hasn’t been easy. I was against going back on medication again because a friend of mine is very anti-pharmacy if it can be helped. I do agree that as a society we get medicated way too easily. However, being back on medication has helped me out a lot. I’ve also started talking to a therapist again. That’s also helped out. There have been times where I would go in and think that the session won’t help, but I usually come out feeling better that I went.
I’m doing my best to look at the positives on things. That has proven to be difficult as well. I try to remind myself for all the blessings I have. That helps sometimes, but not always.
I’m sorry this entry doesn’t seem to be flowing very well, my mind is all over the place plus I’m writing this entry at work so I’m not able to just write it in one sitting. I have so much I want to write about and that’s probably why it’s so difficult to write because there’s just too much on my mind. I know I feel like I haven’t done much with my life. It doesn’t help that I’m turning 38 at the end of the year. That I don’t mind, but it’s the looming turning 40 in two years that has me freaking out. I always would say to myself life would get better and work itself out. Now that I’m at this age I begin to wonder if it will work itself out. Maybe this is just the way it is and I’ll never amount to anything. That in itself is probably the scariest thought. The loss of hope.