At the end of 2019 I thought this was the best me so far yet the first day of the new year I had a breakdown and everything I have been hiding came out, I didn’t want to be here anymore. My poor boyfriend was there during this and completely saved me, my poor family now know how I feel and it’s honestly made me feel worse. I feel like I need to hide it even more now and I’m tired of it. I feel like I’m slowly giving up I hate my new job and don’t even care not going in, I haven’t seen my counsellor in months and am avoiding going back to the doctors. I hope this blog is going to help me, I can say what’s on my mind without upsetting anyone And I can say how I feel without feeling guilty. Fingers crossed this blog can help me.