Why is it I was born into this world with parents who fucking hate me? why the fuck have me!? I just hope everyone else’s family is supportive of their disability. Because it’s fucking awful when they just take the p*** out of you and literally tell you and everyone else that I’m not actually got issues it’s just me blaming that so that I can get away with being “mardy”. I hate these people with a passion but have to live with this. I pray one day I can get out and never see them again. Literally the worse feeling in the world yet all I do for them. I just wish no one else goes through this with their family because it’s hell. He just told me that I need to take more medication as it’s clearly not working. How f****** rude and disrespectful. I can’t even write this right now I’m just so upset. Why me? What did I ever do to deserve this kind of treatment by my own family?
It’s sad that it’s not even the first time. When we all went for a family meal my dad, who I now will not refer to as my dad because he’s nothing to me, told everyone I’m just playing up on it and will start to say it’s my bipolar moods. How f****** dare he. Does anyone else’s family do this or am I just the unfortunate soul to be brought into this mess of a family? I can’t cope with this on top of what I’m feeling now. Only Friday I got help from my psychiatrist and now not get to see him until may time, so got 2 more months of this until I can tell him how there making me feel. I’m already down and depressed. Why is this happening, why was I born into this family.
Hey, I am sorry to hear what you are going through right now. I am in a similar situation, but not as intense. My parents never believe me when I tell them how I feel. They just tell me to get over it and stop worrying so much. They dont understand how much of a physical toll anxiety and panic can take on your body and how it can leave you completely out of it at times. They think I am selfish when I need time alone away from my wife and kids so that i can compose myself when I am experiencing an attack. Don’t get me wrong, my parents have been great parents growing up. But, since I have been struggling with this they have given me 0 support. It is very difficult for my wife to understand also and i know it is frustrating to her. Its hard for others to see when it is an internal war going on.
Yes you’re not alone. Not as intense, but my family thinks I’m being dramatic when I’m really depressed or anxious about something. Could you email your psychiatrist?