Hi guys,

Well what a great weekend so far. I have been to a few meetings and even went to a dance last night that I really did not want to go to… had a great time with a couple of girlfriends in the program… even had one guy try to rip my arms off…. that was fun…. but as I was sitting in these meeting the last couple of days I was watching people. I like to do that… and there is so much pain floating around. And I was talking to a friend and told them about it and saying I wish there were away to just take it all away… I know what pain feels like… I know what extreme pain feels like… and for the ones that I loved and the ones that I am learning to love again. To watch them go threw it is hard… But then they also remind me of this journey that I have been on and that it was just that MY journey to take and no one could come in and rescue me. What I have seen these last few days makes me grateful for AA because with this program I was able to take that journey… I have some amazing people in my life today that are helping me mend this broken heart and 1 that is actually helping me patch the cracks… I cannot look to outside things or people today to fix me. But what I can do is share that I am broken and trying to get fixed… when I put out there what is going on people come out of the wood work saying that they have been there and know what I am feeling… my friend has had a broken heart… so in sharing with him and him sharing with me I think that we are both realizing that we are worthy of the best that life has to offer without pain… so the cracks are being mended… I hurt today because the ones I loved are hurting… and all I can do is watch them take their journey. And pray that there journey leads them to a place of piece and serenity… so I will continue to sit and watch and pray.

LIFE REALLY IS A DANCE IF YOU TAKE THE STEPS….