If I could type this would be better so it may take a while but I
am in the second hour of my celexa and as usual I am like
parkinsons victim. I can't stand this. Life is so horrible right
now when all I think of is what will I feel like in the next
minute or two and how it is going to affect my kids and my life
and the doctors just say to ride through it but it is like a roller
coaster and I can't handle this! I go through this every single
day and can't even function or eat or drink or calm down for
one minute and then magically after about 4 hours and the
shaking and vibrating stops then I can breathe again but then
I pass out, like literally pass out because of being so darned
wired for the next two hours. I just want to sleep instead so I
don't feel like this but how damned productive is that?! NOT!
I wish I could be normal and that one step forward doesn't
always mean 100 back again. This is bloody torture and I
don't know what to think anymore. I am so sick of being sick
and tired and I want to give it all up! I have to look at the
pot of gold at the end of the tunnel I guess and work towards
it. I just wish it was an easier ride and I am going to cry
again and don't want to. Thanks to everyone on here that has
been so accepting of me because I think you all accept me
more than I accept myself. My body hurts from the tension
and my heart hurts from the pain and loneliness. This is my
future and I don't want it if it is going to continue this way!