As I look at my surroundings I see that there are so many people who initially put out that they are so interested in you…. as time runs on I can see that this could not be farther from the truth. Most people actually just put up with what you are saying….. There is really no feeling of anything towards you. I have felt this a lot recently. Yet do they not understand that it really hurts and adds to the troubles which each of us have. I haave studied for years in the scriptures and found that there is a requirement to love one another yet do they really love us? I think they only tolorate us.. I have found this from my own wife… as long as things are going her way things are good yet if there are any other problems it is a non issue with her because it does not directly affect her. Additonally I have found this is true through the world people each of us work with are this way… Attention addicts they want you to pay attention to them when they feel lost or lonely yet if you are in a similar predicament they have no time for you or the troubles which are playing you. It is most dis heartening…. but as I have found in the past these types of people will never change and will eventually get them selves into another situation where again their problems are the only thing which is important…. sooner or later they will just fade into the back ground and no longer be…. just like I feel I am at this time. I cannot be missed… yet I am not so the importance I have felt in the past is only a stumbling block for those who are so much more important than I…..