So I’m just going to start on how my life is just one of the worst.

I believe in Greek mythology, I believe that there is a underworld where Hades lives. When I die, which might be soon. I’m going to ask to go to Tartarus or the fields of punishment because I deserve that.

I’ve done nothing good in my life. I’ve lost everything, my boyfriend, my family, my mind, my sanity. I don’t deserve to live any longer. Everyone who comes close to me gets hurt in the end. and I can’t do this.

It’s only a matter of time before I snap. With my sanity and mind gone, I won’t be in control. I need to end this before it comes to that.

So if one day I’m not here, please don’t blame yourself for my choice. This is better then being killed we’ll I’m howling into the moon light.