I have had an intense amount of anxiety lately. I have tension headaches and can\'t leave work at work. I bring it home a lot in my mind of worry. I worry about if my co workers like me or if they are talking about me behind my back. I worry about what day I am going to have. I have a nervous feeling going into work worrying about if I can handle it. But in reality there has never been a day that I couldn\'t handle.

But I remember in 3rd grade I had similar anxiety, but I actually think it was worse. It was at a time when my mom and dad were seperated and I lived in my mom\'s sister house for about 3 months. My mom was having an affair with my dad\'s sister\'s husband. I remember everything stressed me out to where I would have headaches constantly. I would worry if we were going to get to school on time. I would do projects at the last minute and stress about that. That was a lot for an 8 yr old to deal with.

So I must say that I do think this anxiety is definately from my childhood and the stresses I had then. I was born premature ..weighed a lb and 15 ounces and all my mom has to do is blame my dad for me being premature because he cheated on her when she was pregnant.

I don\'t have a good relationship with my mom. I feel that she betrayed me by marrying my step dad who would call me all sorts of names and tell me that I am nothing and worthless and a moron. And if I yelled at him she would tell me how he has given me a car and other stuff and that he has a big heart. Never stood up to him or for me.

She tells me that without him we would be living in a box or whatever, but I would rather be that way and happy.

I am so thankful for my husband! He listens to me when I tell him all my worries and helps me out a lot. He is awesome! He definately saved me.