What is a friend? They’re supposed to help you when you need it maybe? If they can that is, I think… maybe listen when you’re having a bad day? When you screw up they should let you know yeah?

I’ve given my everything to help a friend. Given more than I should, literally all of my free time and yeah… just kinda kicked to the curb because… I don’t really know.

My friend has spent the last few months asking for my help, so I helped where I could. Her dad recently passed, so I was there for emotional support. Her boyfriend broke up with her, so I helped grab her things from his house. She stored some of her dad’s things at his house so I helped pay for a storage unit and move them there.

We went on a trip to the ocean recently, she spent the whole trip making sure I knew how useless I was, making sure I knew how creepy I was when I stayed close by at the store. When I decided to wander she made sure to inform me not to abandon her. If I said a thing it was wrong, if I didn’t say a thing then that was wrong too.

Once we were back in our home town everything was hunky dory, all smiles and sad that I was tired and was ready to just go home and sleep.

She asked me to help her move things from her garage to the storage when I leaving. I agreed because she’s still my friend and I care.

I sent her a text the next day asking how she was doing because… she’s been in a mood for a while. She simply replied, “fine.” Nothing more. Friday comes around and so I text her once more asking if she still needed my help, it had been 5 days at this point since I’ve heard from her. Her reply, “no.” So fine, monster truck rally it is.

Now it’s been a month since I’ve heard from her. My birthday has come and gone and not a single word, nothing. I’m sure here in another month or so she’ll ask me to hang out but you know…. I don’t know if I want to.

She’s not really let me vent, she has said she wanted me to, but when I do I get interrupted and it’s usually a, “well you shouldn’t feel that way,” or, “that’s dumb, get over it.” I’ve asked for help with things a few times, there’s always something else she needs to do, something more important.

This is kinda how all of my friendships have gone. Nothing new, but it’s beginning to wear on me.

So I ask, what’s a friend? Why do I feel like I need one when this is how you get treated?