every day i tell myself it’s going to be ok no one needs to know u r dieing inside i deal with this pain that i feel beep down  all by myself. my family try’s to help me with things that they know i just can’t tell them that i’m cuting every time some one ask me if i’m ok or hows my day going i just say i’m fine it’s going good even tho i’m  not fine my friends r always calling me cuz i never  go out with any of them any more

all i say any more is i’m fine all i try to do is smile so i can hide the pain behind the smile’s that i fake all the layers that i wear is not cuz i’m cold it’s to cover up the things no one ever see so i guess now u know that i’m not ok but they still don’t know anything and i want it that way i do not want to upset any no so i do not say any thing cuz i care for to many people but yet not a lot care for me but it’s fine cuz i’m fine