There's this little voice that speaks up in my head every now and then. It is usually very quiet and quite overshadowed by the voice telling me all sorts of negative things. This time it feels loud, though, and it feels nice. I'm feeling a bit hopeful that I'll be okay.

A large part of the reason why I'm always depressed is because I feel so alone, but I've always known that I should be okay with that as long as I'm content with myself. Nowthis may sound ridiculous and hilarious, but Bob's Burgers totally helped me. In the last episode Tina said something about how she always wants boys to pay attention to her, but she realizes she should just pay attention to herself. I need to do the same thing. I should pay attention to myself. If I got all better without worrying abouthow many or few people I have in my life, I could still be happy. I can be happy all on my own. Who would have thought it?

A large part of me knowsthe louder, meaner voice will come back around to overshadow this nicer one eventually, though. I have a tattoo of a bow on my wrist that reminds me that no matter what, I'm not allowed to end it because this life is a gift i shouldn't just throw away. I don't plan on covering my entire body with tattoos telling myself that I'll be okay, but I figured leaving myself little notes won't hurt. I'm going to write notes to myself, jot down quotes, and list songs that should all remind me to stay positive. I'm a creative booger; Surely I can make a fun project out of this.I figure if there's a slew of things that remind me to be negative, I can make a slew things to remind me to be positive. Hopefully this trickery works. I don't expect things to drastically change overnight or even a year, but maybe little changes will be enough to make me feel better.