I don't know what is wrong with me. I have a great relationship with this guy and I mentally am messing it up. I am paranoid and mentally unstable when it comes to the relationship. I can't understand why we don't see each other constantly. I can't understand why he says he misses me but won't see me more. I can't understand why he tells me he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me but doesn't see me more than once a week. I can't understand why we are I the honeymoon stage of our relationship and our sex life went from 4 times a night to maybe once. I feel he is not attracted to me. I feel that since we met I gained weight and that caused the decline in our sex life. He's says that is so far from true but in my mind it is true. I can't understand why he can't make plans in advance. I can't understand anything. It's like I am doing what I always do and am trying to make problems so I can be alone and sad. I need to fix this issue I have and don't know how. I want to know how to be in a normal relationship. I want to be normal and not paranoid. I want to understand what it is like to allow someone to truly love you. I want to be able to feel happy every day even when my love is not with me. I don't know how to do this. Is there classes or a book out there to help this type of problem. I need help. I need help badly. I don't want to acre this relationship up and I am slowly. Just like I did all the rest. Why did I end up with a brain that works this way. Why me??????