I'm really worried. I know that I probably shouldn't be, but I'm worried. It's currently 3:28am and I'm here alone. My boyfriend and his brother went fishing tonight at about 7pm and they still aren't back yet…my boyfriend usually goes fishing for long amounts of time regularly, he usually drags me along and we stay out until about 1 or 2 in the morning and we get there at about 3pm, but anyways…

He took his brother with him, and his brother is very impatient and when we're there fishing he usually starts to complain and whine about going home within the first hour. So I don't know where they are. I know that when they're together my boyfriend tends to listen to his brother about doing stupid things (he still has a VERY large scar on his back from last time they were alone and he listened to his brother). I know that he wouldn't do anything EXTREMELY stupid…no, that's a lie, I pretty sure that he'd do anything that came to his or his brother's mind. But I'm just worried.

I'd call him but he took the phone with him, and everyone else with a phone is asleep. They went to sleep at about 9pm, so I can't use their phone…this sucks!!! I'm really worried and I can't do anything.

Oh well…so ya…um…on another note I guess. After we all move into the apartment there are going to be 11 of us in a 3 bedroom apartment (his mother's brilliant idea). His grandparents are going to be going back to Puerto Rico in 2 months and then supposedly 3 or 4 months after that his mom is going to pay me $100 per kid a month to watch them and take care of them. Hopefully before that time I have a steady paying job and me and my boyfriend are moved out of there. But if for some reason we aren't, I doubt that she'll even pay me, we had an agreement before that when she was gone I'd watch the kids and she'd pay me $45…never happened. But whatever I guess…

I'm really tired and want to go to bed but I want to know that my boyfriend is ok…when he got home it was just a "Hi baby…do you want to go fishing?" I told him no and he said "Ok, I'll see you later." He said I'll see you later, not tommorrow…I'm just worried about him. The thing is, I can't even imagine what he might be up to or what might have happened to him because I think about something horrible and then I just stop myself because I know nothing like that would happen to him…I hope. God this really sucks!!