So, last night I had one of my good guy friends over.

He made dinner with me, we were chilling, eating, talking about things, life, etc. you know things i normally talk about with my friends..

and we watched tv and i came on here to do hw.

then all of a sudden he starts rubbing my shoulders and sitting near me.

I let him, because i don't mind a massage..

but then he started wanting to umm grab my breasts.. and i had to knock him away. and then he's like kissing my neck and i had to get up and yell at him.

he sat near me and kept trying to grab me and was being annoying. i know he really likes me but i do not feel the same.

he was in a "mood" if you know what i mean…but i was not feeling it nor did i ask for that!

So i had to keep telling him stop, no , don't do that. I don't feel comfortable.

He was not listening to me or respecting me.. So he finally left. I kicked him out. took him awhile to do it.

I almost had to call the cops. It was so sad, becasue i've known him since 8th grade and i can't believe he would act like that.

To top it off today h'es all like hey. just casual like nothing happened..

i'm like leave me alone i don't want to talk to you.

he didn't get why i was mad…didn't think he disrespected me when i told him to stop… etc. he thought i wanted it…

and he's like i won't let it happen next time, etc.

I'm like there will be no next time.

oh and to top it off, when he kissed my neck briefly.. i looked in the mirror and i have a hickey!!

I am so pissed. it's not even funny. I've never had a hickey and i'm not happy about it!

i can't be around him or friends with him now. it's so sad and messed up.. sigh

but i deserve more then that.. and i don't want to be groped innappropriately by someone who's supposed to be my friend..

was not in the best mood today.. which sucked and it was hard to fall asleep last night.. my mind was messed up. great.

i already have enough problems and now i'm picturing it and it's disturbing me..