Ok so this is my first blog. I am usually ok the thing that sux so much is that I have no idea most of the stuff that trigger my anxiety. Today I didnt feel to good so I know for sure that one thing that does trigger my anxiety is when I feel sick. Its like when I get sick anything from tummy ache to a cold my mind goes into overdrive that I am alot sicker than I really am and I get extremely anxious thinking what is wrong with me I start asking myself (am I loosing my mind) (Do I need to go to the ER) (Is it nothing am I exagarated) and so on and so forth till the anxiety comes and then I am not strong enough to make it go away quickly. I am a pretty strong person I have been through alot and I am pretty good at dealing with things so this whole anxiety thing pisses me off. I hate not being able to controll my own thoughts and feelings when I want to. Then at the same time my anxiety does not happen every day so I feel almost guilty complaining about it knowing that some people have it alot worse and have to deal with it and cant really controll it at all. Mine comes and goes and happens when it feels like it :(. I was in the shower when it happend and started telling myself its ok it will pass then named the colors of the things around me then concentrated on the warmth of the water then concentrated on the smell of the shampoo then concentrated on the fact that it will pass and everything would be fine and then I told myself its ok to get frustrated about my anxiety and that its something I have to deal with then it passed and left like a bully that messes with u and then leaves u alone..Yeah thats what anxiety is a BIG BULLY.This is just bugging me that I even have to deal with this damn anxiety but ima suck it up and keep it moving. I just hope that I wont have to deal with this for the rest of my life. Ok well I will pray about it….